Premonition?

Premonition. I don’t know if this is the right word.

It was two nights already that I have kept on thinking about the crucial situation that might be happening in my place where I am in now. It was more than hours for two nights of discerning about it before I fall to sleep. I have never asked myself why I have all those thoughts for nights. Well, I just forgot.

Then, news came up today that Brussels was attacked by terrorist, a big blast to the airport and subway station. Casualties and damages are increasing. Then, I understood about my two nights intuition of critical situation.

This is not new to me. There are times that I unexpectedly think of something disastrous to anyone, anywhere. For example, without warning, I would think someone died from my relatives, with this and that, and the next day someone died either he/she would be close to me or not. There is always something bad happened after my unusual thoughts.

This is not only twice, but so many times happened. I lost counting.

It’s weird, and I have never told anyone about this. I tried to write it every time this thing happened, but I just couldn’t, not until today.
That is why I tried very hard to keep my mind busy and never gave space to think about unusual things. But as I said, without warning, they will just come. It makes me shivered.

I always asked myself why I have this kind of thing, and I just couldn’t find the answers.

I hope this is just my imagination.