I avoided to check my Facebook account for a moment because of the several candle profiles that has been showing for days. This candle profiles means death from their family members. I feel sad, but quite afraid too. Nervous to realize that we will lose someone any time, in any ways.
Two of my friend’s father died due to natural death and the other one is because of covid. My cousin’s son who was 15 years old committed suicide as if he was just playing his games on an ordinary day. My aunt died unexpectedly because of the complication as things go with the virus. My colleague witness the last breath of her grandmother through the video call. Everyone is devastated. I am and feeling anxious. What if and what will happen next are the questions I couldn’t resist to think.
This situation has taught me that sometimes there is no next time. Before my aunt died, she keeps forwarding messages in the Facebook, on some occasion I ignored it. One day, I told myself to respond to her after my working hours, but then I was too late. My cousin maybe decided to talk to his son at a later time about his strange behavior but found his body cold. My colleague knows that her grandma doesn’t have time to wait for her so she said goodbye even though only in the face time.
When we are given the time to do something, we must dive head on. Let’s not wait for tomorrow because what lies ahead gives no promises. Regret is the other word I should have. Let’s try not to pass the moment of opportunity given to us. Don’t wait. Take steps before it’s too late.
My family might feel the pressure of me sending them messages and asking them everyday, but what can I do? I am feeling uncertainty of not being with them day to day.
Keep safe everyone. Reach out today.